LauraElizaHaynes
Ruminating
Often it comes
Attempts at self mastery
The Wise can settle
Into the cacophony within
Grasp released
Annihilation ambition put down
In favour of restful awareness
Watching…
Anxiety’s apprehension
Recognising….
Melancholy’s malaise
Realising…
Doubt’s discomfort
Knowing their transience
How they dissolve when left alone
How they grow and morph when probed
Yes I am pondering
Why I secretly covet misery
Fearful of peace
Unable to trust
My senses now
Delusions made real
An eternal row
Between my worries
And all my doubts
To my hopes
A pointless bout
So all that is left is
Do what I know
The only option
Is to let go
I don’t mean of life
Despite its pains
I mean the mires
Inside my brain
I fear you won’t say yes,
To my needful request.
So I dare not ask.
–
As what will I do,
If it’s your view,
To turn from my grasp?
The Council came to order.
Anxiety feared a fall.
Ego took centre stage.
His charisma wooed them all.
Anger blurted out,
A persuasive call to arms.
Compassion tried to talk about;
The need for all to calm.
Fear looked for an escape.
Courage wouldn’t see him fly.
Doubt said that all were wrong.
Fatalism just wanted to die.
Then Honesty stood firm,
And called for Intelligence.
Who saw a chance to learn,
And all the rest saw sense!
I worry,
I’m not strong enough,
To do the things I hope to do.
I wonder,
Why I strive to give up,
All that I have worked to be.
I know,
This path that I am on,
Is not the course that I must take.
I therefore,
Look to something new,
And hope that it is strength I gain
